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I recently turned 30 years old. I had anticipated this decade as many had said so many positive things about it. The nearer it came the more petrified I became of being considered "in my thirties". 29 sounded so youthful, while verborations of 30 had "adult" overtones. I've always considered myself a kid at heart. I never much favored "growing up". It seemed to me that adulthood would rob me of my energy, my enthusiasm and my time, and that it had. This caused me to wrestle with the juxtaposition I found myself in. A crossroads of sorts where my youth & adulthood were in competition with each other. My views of adulthood were that I would "know what I believed", "I would understand every detail of my denomination". My voice would be heard and my opinions taken seriously. I would have it "all together" I was anxious to reach this time of conviction & belief. The harder I tried the more wearisome my religion became. Gone, it seemed were the days of my youth where new ideas were fascinating, not a distraction, where Ellen G. White was inspiring not controversial, where religion was exciting, not burdensome. Then I came to discover the true gospel of Christ. A gospel so clear, even a child could grasp it's concepts. It was then I felt the self-imposed burden of my religion was lifted. It was then I realized that I needed to retain the innocence and trustiness of a child because of the forgiving & great God that I served. . I was also able to realize "because I had become an adult", that my responsibility because of my love for God was true obedience. Somehow it was then the mixture of youthfulness & adulthood began to become more clear. It was then I realized that age mattered not but that it was my choice of accepting Christ's robe of righteousness that meant everything. I'm still trying to get used to the idea of being 30 I've come to be more at peace with God's acceptance of me as a child of God and as an adult in training, I'm so grateful to be more at peace knowing that God's gift of salvation is not something I can earn but what I've been given if I so choose to accept it. because of God's eternal love for "his children".
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